HARDSTYLE / HARDCORE 5EVA ♥♥
I’m tired of being tired. I’m sick of feeling like a complete failure because I can’t even get out of bed to attend school because I’m too goddamn sick to even walk to the bathroom. I’m tired of forgetting to take my meds, and having to re-experience all the bad side effects all over again. I’m tired of watching my friends stress over school and what time they should meet up at the library, while I stress about shit that shouldn’t be dealt with by someone my age. I’m tired of being called lazy, cos narrow minded people have no idea what I’m going through. I’m tired of not being able to shout into people’s faces the truth about what’s happening, just to prove them wrong. I’m tired of breathing. I’m literally so fucking tired of being me, and dealing with all this bullshit. I hate when people throw around the word ‘depressed’ just because they’re having a couple of bad weeks, newsflash guys your feelings are real and you can be sad all you want, doesn’t mean you’re ‘depressed’, stop comparing yourself to me then calling me a sook, you literally have no idea what I am going through and I’m sick of being put down because none of this is even my fault, but I have to deal with it anyway lol. I’m so fucking tired of being alive, if only I had the energy to kill myself again, I’d do it in a fucking heartbeat, but I’m too sick to even get out of bed lmao.
he sank the boat he was working on just to kill the captain